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Hmmm... I think I'm just going to kind of go about this by random things that pop into my head rather than questions. Warning: Remotely saddening content, read at your own risk.
Well to start off, I'm really not at all like I seem on the internet when it comes to real life. On the internet I am this happy, hyper, all over the place kind of girl. However, in real life behind all of that is just me, this anti-social almost 15 year old. -Woo Christmas Eve baby, yay me
- So, anyways yeah. Me in real life compared to online, completely different.Behind a screen it's easier to seem happy I guess. This probably won't be a very happy sort of "Behind the Screen." kind of thing.
There are many things that do make me happy though. I absolutely love reading, it takes me away from reality. If you knew me in real life you'd probably always see me with my phone in my hand reading something online. Oh and with my headphones in listening to music, I don't know what I would do with myself if I didn't have music in my life. Lastly I love roleplaying, much like reading it takes me away from reality.
Now you're probably wondering why I hate reality so much right? Well my life isn't horrible, but I guess life itself is. I live everyday of my life just kind of thinking about the problems with the world, and dealing with my own problems. My mother has constantly been sick, my parents divorced last year, and I'm just constantly feeling like a fuck up. Excuse the language, that's one of my many bad habits that I will explain in a little while. Honestly though that's not all that bad I guess, I mean there are plenty of people with horrible lives yet are happy to at least have a life but I'm just kind of here not liking mine very much.
My bad habits I mentioned, well I have quite a few but the ones I can think of off the top of my head are simple. I have a horrible mouth, generally in real life in every other sentence you'll probably hear at least two swears especially if I'm mad. I also have this bad habit of putting myself down constantly and thinking "Well you could of done better if you would actually try." which leads to my next very very bad "habit" that is more of an addiction.
- This is the read if you really want to part - Rather depressing.:
- Now I'm not very shy about this, I'll tell a random stranger that I do it, you've probably already guessed it. Yes, I have self harmed before. My boyfriend has made me promise to never do it again but I recently broke that promise, luckily he forgave me after we argued a little bit.
But that's nothing to brag about, how about I try putting some happy stuff in here so I don't make you guys all sad and depressed. My favorite pass times are editing pictures - A few of you have already saw this: Killian and Jo.- I also have these random little bursts of ideas to write a story, I just usually never finish them. The only time I really finish a story is when it's a one-shot story, not a chapter story. I have a very large imagination and I often come up with roleplay ideas for packs, or like human roleplays and stuff but I never have the ambition to try and start a roleplay because when I've tried in the past they just kind of die out rather fast or no one takes an interest in them. Once I have my laptop back and I'm not using a netbook borrowed from my teacher I will definitely be getting back into my colouring on the computer, I love coloring linearts on the program Paint Tool SAI, I used to use GIMP and I've tried a free trial of Photoshop but I just got completely lost with that and the free trial ran out v.v' So I just continue using SAI.
Hermm.... In the other ones of these I saw that they put a basic of what they look like. So I am currently rather short still sadly >.< I'm only 5'3 or 5'4 at the most if I'm lucky I haven't been checked in a while. I currently have bleached sandy blonde hair with my lovely brown roots coming in and a really faded purplish tone to the underside of my hair. I'm hoping to be able to dye my hair black and have my bangs blue because my boyfriend came up with the lovely idea of us both dying our hair black and him having red bangs while I have blue - I'll explain in a minute.- so yeah. I have a really bad obsession with dying my hair. I've dyed it about 30-35 times since 6th grade and I'm in 9th now. Anyhow, back to what I look like, the lovely*sarcasm* mix to go with my shortness is I'm rather chubby sadly - It's kind of going away now but very very very slowly. - and lastly I have brownish[brown/red/gold] eyes.
Anyways lastly to explain the thing with red and blue, Dylan, my brother, and I all have this obsession with the four elements Earth, Air, Fire, and Water, because we all grew up watching Avatar The Last Airbender. So we all kind of came to the conclusion that I'm a lot like Katara from A:TLA because I'm the generally calm but still hot tempered motherly type so I'm water. Then Dylan is the hot tempered one like Zuko so he's fire. Then there's my brother, I don't really know who he's like in the show but he's definitely got the qualities of an Earth bender from the show. So yeah all we need is our own little Airhead to go in our group. By the way, I'm the youngest in what you will generally hear me refer to as 'the group' I'm almost 15, Dylan and my brother are 18, then there's our part time group buddy named Robbie who doesn't really fit in with our whole Avatar thing we have going on. xD Well I think this is enough about how I am in real life. If you have any questions feel free to PM me and I'll answer. I'm not really shy over the internet.
*Cough*BTW Killian it kind of just popped into my head I have an obsession with Pirates so yeaaahhhh ^^' Don't fear for your life or anything.
but it was nice to get to know you a little better anyways. If you like a bit of mystery and love, you might like a book called 'legend' :3 It's not a huge amount of mystery, but it's still really awesome :3
